Another birthday, usually an occasion I dread. Not at all because of aging per se. Here’s a picture of me this morning and aging is not so damn bad.
Rather, it’s because each year, I mark time by birthdays, not by New Year’s. This is the time I usually make or assess resolutions. This is when I measure my accomplishments or lack of them !
But this year, while I have been dreading my birthday’s approach for more than 4 months, I feel at peace today. I am not a finished product and don’t have to be. Just because it’s my birthday I don’t have to excoriate myself for unattained goals. (I should save that behavior for any old day!)
I am restive, and there are many things in my life I wish to be different, but the fact that they aren’t yet, on today, doesn’t mean they never will be. And I am fierce, and I will get somewhere good.
In the meantime, my plan today is to enjoy the beauty of this sunshiny, warmer day, and drink some good wine, and relax while taking the day off work.
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